Your mother and I are currently discussing whether or not we should grow our little family by another member or not.

For the past year or so, this has been out of the question as your mother was more than happy (and busy) with the two of you; I always thought about having another kid – maybe because I felt like having a son would be something that “I would like”. It's a men's thing, I guess :)

After you returned from holidays in Italy / Lecche with your mom's sister, your mom wasn't so sure anymore and stated that I could decide whether or not we want to have another child, because she didn't want to rob me of that decision (isn't she wonderful :) ).

While I would happily say yes before, now I am kind of in between. We discussed the “pros and cons” (as horrible as that sounds).

We are happy and grateful to have two wonderful and happy daughters like you do; and with every new kid, there's always the question: “Will everything be okay? Will it be healthy?” – and other questions such as “will we be able to handle it? Are we willing to put our own relationship on the bench for 2 or 3 more years, now that you're getting to an age where things will be “easier” for us and we'll have more “freedom” as a married couple.

On my end, there's another thing I'm thinking about – I always had “a boy” in the back of my head. Of course, another girl would be perfectly fine too, but it was all about that “have a son” thing.

Now, if I'm honest, I don't even know if I would be “happier” about a boy or girl. I think having another lovely, beautiful daughter like the two of you would be absolutely wonderful as well, and I'm used to a “girls household” by now. Now the question in my head is – would I be almost “disappointed” if I get a boy now?

It's strange, thinking about all this in such a theoretical way, but well… that's what goes through your mind….

I don't know the answer yet, but I just wanted to share this with you :).

Love you